I don’t what it is, but I’ve come to realize that I don’t really care about much anymore. And don’t get me wrong, this is not in a negative, emotionally depressed, my life freaking sucks kinda thing. It’s more of a “I just want to sit back and enjoy all the little things in life and not stress” kinda thing. The reason why I brought this up is because I did atrociously on my SAT in June and I told myself I’m going to sit down all summer and really study so I can get an acceptable score, but of course, right now I am sitting here and telling myself “Who gives a fuck?” I do well in school but I can’t do well on a required test. I’m not sure if I am just unlucky or if this is a sign that our school board is just really messed up. But anyways, I don’t know. I just don’t like to stress. I want to enjoy my life and not sit in a room all day studying for hours for something that in reality, does not prove how “smart” or how “prepared for college” I am. I just want to be happy.